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birthday wish list

2010-12-31T11:24:00.002+08:00

every year, before i celebrate my birthday, i will list down things that i want for my birthday.. whether i get what i want is a different matter.. so here are the list that i want for my birthday

Blackberry Torch
Ipod Iphone
A set collection of Ken Hirai's album
a Kitten (upon approval from my Housemates)
Nike shoes, the green and yellow one
a great body :P
PSP

errr.. basically only that kot.. coz now im not sure wat else i want coz i will get things i want sooner or later :P

trust

2010-11-22T12:39:00.002+08:00

i have an issue when it comes to trusting people. i think, wherever u go, or whatever u do, it is for yourself only. when i trusted people and they betrayed my trust, i have no one to blame but myself. i shouldnt have put so much trust on people.

but the problem with me, is that i dun have a reason for not trusting them, but of course after they betrayed the trust i gave them, i wont believe them anymore.

now im taking full responsible for the mistake that i made. yeahh of course people will tell me to blame them (those who lied to me) but what can i do? if i call them up, definitely they will deny everything.

so after this, i will be very cautious and everything is for me, myself, alone.

sigh~

2010-10-23T11:34:00.003+08:00

the saddest thing i could remember so far is YESTERDAY.. i just found out that i completed my studies, and yet, i dun have someone i can share this with and someone that will hug me and say, congratulation baby, u did it...!! and give me a kiss of congratulation and then tell me that they will be there when im having my convocation :) ohh it just a wishful thinking

sigh..~

the Platinum Rules

2010-10-17T12:17:00.004+08:00

Why you shouldn't date people

Steps 1: Attraction - This is how you met people, because of the attraction, you being attracted with either the same sex or the opposite sex.

Steps 2: Bargaining -The topic that you need to talk with the people since they will be too close to them

Steps 3: Submission - It shows everyone falling for the person that they are doing things with.

Steps 4: Perks - The benefit you'll gonna get when you're going out with someone

Steps 5: Tipping point - The climax of the 'date'

Steps 6: Purgatory - Any condition or place of temporary punishment, suffering, expiation, or the like, after you went through the 'tipping point' stage

Steps 7: Confrontation - After a while you will need to confront with those people explaining that this relationship should end

Steps 8: Fallout - the consequence after the confrontation (either the other people can take it well or can't handle it well)

But, looking back at the platinum rule, I think there's a 9th Step. We'll call it COEXISTENCE. It's the moment you realize that all that anger and resentment just isn't useful. And you start to let go of it. And move on with your life. It just takes a while." It shows the groups of people co-existing in the world.

taking advise from How I Met Your Mother

friends

2010-09-30T06:17:00.001+08:00

its been a while i havent update my bloggie.. and today is the last day im in malacca, great and i miss my bestie frens already :)

goodbye

2010-07-09T09:52:00.002+08:00

only 1 person can make me a headache and i can have hypertension because of her. FINALLY i deleted her..

sigh~ wat to do. its better like this..

now my mind can be at ease... the past is the past and as usual, i wont turn back anymore

say what?

2010-07-05T20:05:00.003+08:00

many people doubted me, they think im incapable of doing anything. my voices, my opinons, my suggestion, they take it lightly. u can say im unheard. even some of members of my family think that im incapable of doing anything.

but i dun take them seriously. i know what im doing and im very sure of what i am doing.

but the funny thing is, every single words i told them, turns to gold. it means that, wat im saying is right. im not bragging myself, but i see how foolish people can be. they said bad things behind my back, but at the same time, they use my words for their benefit.

aaahhhhh.. the world is getting uglier. i know that. but i kinda like it this way. coz if you cannot survive, then you're dead. only the strong win. but then again, only the smarter knows how to be strong.

i wasnt born with good looks, or having an intelligent mind, or having the strongest body. but i think im smart in certain ways. i know when to start some, when to stop, and when to be greedy.

many people underestimated me, just because im a laid back person, doesnt mean i do not know whats happening around me. i do. but i just dun bother bout it. but if they make a fuss in my territory, then they'll know how fierce i can be. i dun show my act, i'll gonna do it slowly without any sympathy.

soon. and soon when im capable of doing things on my own, i mean when im working, i'll just proceed my plan. i have lots of things in mind that i wanna do. im gonna make them beg for me, and trust me, when i hate someone so badly, im gonna make sure they wont receive any good treats from me. and thats my promise..

Megan Fox

2010-06-12T23:56:00.002+08:00

im in love with Megan Fox coz she's HOT... HOT.. HOT...!! now, here's Top 9 best quotes by Megan Fox which i like..

Golden Globes, January 2009: "I am pretty sure I'm a doppelgänger for Alan Alda. I'm a tranny. I'm a man."
FHM, June 2007: "I forget to flush the toilet. Friends will tell me, 'Megan, you totally pinched a loaf in my toilet and didn't flush.'
GQ, September 2008: "Olivia Wilde is so sexy, she makes me want to strangle a mountain ox with my bare hands."
New York Post, November 2008: "I'm obsessed with [Zac Efron]. What you don't know is that Zac and I are the same person. It's like Janet and Michael [Jackson]. We are the same person."
Esquire, May 2009: "Let me tell you what it's really about. High School Musical is about this group of boys who are all being molested by the basketball coach, who is Zac Efron's dad. It's about them struggling to cope with this molestation. And they have these little girlfriends, who are their beards. Oh, and somehow there's music involved."
GQ, October 2008: "If you eat Chinese food, your farts come out like Chinese food. If you eat Mexican food, your farts come out like Mexican food. And milk, it's like—you can smell the warmth in the fart."
Comic-Con, July 2009: "I would eat Rob Pattinson so that I could steal some of that pretty. I wanna be pretty like he's pretty. I want that James Dean, that sexy-ass hair."
Esquire, May 2009: "I have no question in my mind about being bisexual. But I'm also a hypocrite: I would never date a girl who was bisexual, because that means they also sleep with men, and men are so dirty that I'd never want to sleep with a girl who had slept with a man."
GQ, June 2009: "When you think about it [actors are] kind of prostitutes. Other people are paying to watch us kissing someone, touching someone...It's really kind of gross."

i want i want i want

2010-06-03T09:19:00.000+08:00

craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaving for black jacket and it only cost ya rm150.00 but where to find money ya :P

kisah si arkitek dan si lawyer

2010-05-30T14:39:00.002+08:00

kalau arkitek couple dengan lawyer.. boleh jadi ka? takde masalah kot. arkitek membina, si lawyer mengawal. tapi apa yg arkitek boleh bina? si arkitek boleh membina rumah untuk si lawyer. dan agak agak kalau mereka gaduh, si lawyer boleh laa menjual rumah itu kan.. :P hehehehe

tapi apa yg si lawyer mampu beri kepada si arkitek? si lawyer hanya mampu memberikan kata kata yg indah kepada si arkitek. tapi setakat kata kata, boleh kah menjamin kebahagiaan? haaaa sbb itu laa si lawyer kena membuat perjanjian hitam putih.. waaaaa gheetooo kata nya.

anyway, tak kisah laaa.. arkitek pon arkitek laaa.. yg penting, sama sama happy ..

sekian

2010-05-25T18:51:00.001+08:00

babe, i know im just an options.. so i dun take seriously wat u said.. hey chill.. ur're an options too.. so hey chill

lesson learned

2010-05-17T10:02:00.002+08:00

one thing i learned that if you wanna be on top, is that you have to use your sexual appeal to get anything you want.. flirt is the main key. keep on flirting and flirting and flirting so that people will fall for you..

and thats how i get things i want.. i relied heavily on flirting gameplay. i learned this from whom? from PARVATI from survivor fans v favourite and survivor heroes v villains contestant.

she showed me that flirting is the key to control people and the key to be on top. so people, there you go.. my tips on getting to top :D

update

2010-05-16T12:57:00.003+08:00

setelah sekian lama tak update blog.. ni perkembangan terbaru:

baru beli laptop baru
exam da abis
mlm tadi spending time dengan coursemate sbb pasnie tak jumpa diorang lagi
last week jadi pengapit utk my fren
sedang mencari teman
baru lepas joint majlis doa selamat kat umah jiran sebelah

di rumah

2010-04-24T12:58:00.002+08:00

bila kat umah je, sikap panas baran tu seolah olah kembali lagi...~

asal dok umah je, nak marah, dok umah je nak marah.. haihhhh...

kenapa ya? hmmmmmm...~ sbb tu suka dok kat mlk atau kat kl

and then..

2010-04-19T17:56:00.002+08:00

i got my haircut which i dislike coz not done by my cute hairstylist huhuhuhuh

friends

2010-04-12T00:32:00.001+08:00

i miss my friends..

hope to hang out together again like we used to

2010-03-30T10:19:00.003+08:00

im freaking bored and lonely

i wanna wake up in the morning and there's a person sleeping next to me

i dun like being alone

i felt pathetic

and i jelaous seing my frens with their loves one

wondering when can i be like them

i dun wanna end up alone

Law Nite 2010.. part II

2010-03-28T03:26:00.006+08:00

Law Nite 2010 is superb for me..

this is wat i've been waiting for a true prom nite..

althou im not bringing my date, but i had fun

the stories goes like this...

1.00pm- matt, sara and me arrive at the hotel, we check in room 1313

2 30pm- we went dataran, sigh seing before the event

5.00pm- Mega arrived and went to Dataran Pahlawan to set her and sara's hair

6.30pm- arrival of some friends who changed their cloth in our room, Wina, Naddy, Elle and her Bf

7.00pm- Mega and Sara arrived with the new hair setting

8.00pm- we went to the Lobby to meet Lynn and her bf, Shah

8.30pm- enter the Ball and sat at our table,

9.00pm- speech, stand up comedy, performance and dinner

12.00am- event finish, Ammar won Legal Idol singing 'When You say Nothing at All' OST Notting Hills

1.00am- played Uno in room with 2 guest, Dasha and Friend

here are some of the highlights of the nite

Naddy, cried over her make up and hair, coz she's not satisfied with it eventhough everyone is in love wit her hair and make up
Lynn didnt do her hair due to time consuming
I changed 2 outfit :P
Ammar won Legal Idol
im in love with performance by K Fatimah n frens singing 'Nobody'
The food was sOoo damn good expecially the lasagna
Sara almost had wardrobe malfunction
Final Year student are so United and Cool and co-operate with one another
Saw bunch of cute juniors which Sara and matt not allowing me to flirt wit them :D
Dasha attend the event on last minute (with fucking sexy dress)
Deyanna Saifuddin brough her bf and brother which i found cute by doing such thing (just love the family bond thing)
Rozarina and Carol sang together (was shocked to see carol singing like that, thou)
most happening table, of course Jason's table coz they have TOBY on their side
Saw Mdm Flora and husband (first time saw her husband in public, kind good looking too)
Matt, Sara and me slept in room 1313 (sounds creeppy with 1313 numbers)

overall, i really had a blast spending the nite with my frens and i dun regret attending this event coz this might be my last event and seing my dearest classmate

Law Nite 2010

2010-03-28T03:08:00.009+08:00

the Team

The Unexpected One

the Gorgeous Lady

the Adorable Man

the Sexy Kitten

the Hot stuff

with my dearest friends.... Miss you and Lurve u all...~ (but wit no string attach)

thank you for spending the Nite with me

hope we can be friends till the end

burppp

2010-03-27T17:34:00.002+08:00

my great weekend had just being spoiled by some educated words..~

damn it

.... words....

2010-03-24T20:31:00.003+08:00

you are not the same person as i used to know

(your words 2 month ago)

you are no longer the same person i know, you have change

(my words today)

goodbye sayang

2010-03-24T08:11:00.003+08:00

sayang,
the first time we met is on 1st may 2009...~
since then, every morning, sharp at 10am i'll be infront of my lapi and wait for you to online..~
but now sayang, u're gone....
finish...~

and i'm sad coz, you left me without goodbye...
you are so beautiful yet so strong..~
thats what i like about you..

sayang..
why you end this so early...
now i dunno what to do without you in the morning..
you light up my day, and night...
i look up at you every night and day..

sayang,
its hard to say goodbyee.,
but thank you for everything

i miss you, mikami..
i shall read you over and over again.
my truly favourite manga....

a tribute to Ghost Sweaper Mikami from onemanga.com

how to murder ur fren...

2010-03-20T03:49:00.013+08:00

this is how you should murder your friend. CAUTION: this is only made up for JOKES. Nothing is related to a real life, and if there's a similarities, it is only a COINCIDENCE

1. punch your friend on his stomach

2. knocked him down

3. make sure he is dead and drag him to car

4. put him inside the car, where no one can see the dead body

5. make sure u have partner in crime

6. eliminate your partner so there can be no witness, also steal her money

7. fight among yourself

lastly: be the sole survivor

morale of the story: when u committed a crime, make sure no trace was left behind.. heheheheheh

THE END

lesson learned

2010-03-16T22:52:00.004+08:00

last time, my ex told me to brush my teeth before going to bed.

coz my ex dun like to smell any bad breath coming from my mouth.

i dun smoke and i dunno wat bad breath can my ex smell.

but now, im getting used to that habit. brushing ur teeth before going bed.

and when i brush my teeth while looking at the mirror, i think of my ex...

ahhhh wat to do, wat to do.. we're no longer together but i still remembering my ex's advise.. coz i know, its good for my health :)

missing... something

2010-03-15T19:53:00.003+08:00

Law Nite is just around the corner... i got my tickets already, but im missing a date..

No one, wanna accompany me :( and im sad, so sad

i've managed to gather my close close fren to come that nite and some of them bringing their date.. but im dateless..

huhuhuuhuhuh

where is my date... oh dear, where are you..

come with me for my precious nite...

Alice in Wonderland

2010-03-13T02:57:00.004+08:00

Alice in Wonderland is totally superb...!!

Hands down to Tim Burton..

speechless...~

kawan...

2010-03-12T11:35:00.003+08:00

mohd arif adalah seorang yg mementing kan kawan

tapi mohd arif takkan menyebelahi mana mana pihak sbb dia seorang yg neutral bak kata lain, seperti negara negara berkecuali..

mohd arif takkan menolak jikalau kawan meminta pertolongan

dengan syarat ia tidak memudarat kan mohd arif

tapi

mohd arif amat tidak suka apabila kawan makan kawan

kawan itu penting.

apabila mohd arif berada di samping kawan kawanya,

bukan bermakna dia bergantung pada kawan kawan

tapi

mohd arif akan sentiasa berada di sisi kawan kawan kalau mereka memerlukan nya.

hanya kawan kawan yg RAPAT sahaja mengenali siapa mohd arif yg SEBENAR

oleh itu, saya bole kata kan, dun judge a book by its cover.

mohd arif tak kisah pandangan org lain terhadapnya

tetapi

kawan kawan yg RAPAT dan MENGENALI saya, tanya saya dahulu perkara sebenar

sebelum membuat telahan sendiri agar tidak di maki oleh saya.

akhir kata, jangan lah memperkotak katik kan persahabatan kita

terima kasih

pengajaran di kl

2010-03-11T22:37:00.002+08:00

weekend lepas, aku ke kl, melepak kan diri di sana, berjumpa kawan kawan. kitaorg citer2 la pasa muzik, dan tetiba masuk suara org sedap.. Jaclyn Victor, punya suara nada tinggi, Ning Baizura tak mampu nk menyanyi nada tinggi, Siti Nurhaliza plak, banyak menang album terbaik tapi lagu terbaik, cuma skali je menang.. camna tu?

then dia tanya aku, tau tak falsetto (ejaan ntah betul ntah tidak, bantai) tu apa? aku cakap laa tau, bukan susah pon, dia cakap, bila org yg takbley nyanyi lagu tarik tinggi, diorang cover ngan buat falsetto. oOoo agak nya laa.. pastu aku bertanya, falsetto nie, kira nya sama laa ngan suara kepit??? kwang kwang kwang.. sbb sesetengah org yg nk capai suara perempuan tak dapat, so diorang kepit laaa kan suara memasing?? betul tak? heheheheh ada kah? betul kah? benar kah? anda yang menentukan nya

too fat to be true~

2010-02-22T08:02:00.004+08:00

Kevin Smith had the Twitterverse in a frenzy over the weekend after Southwest airlines escorted him off a flight for being overweight. Smith posted a series of vitriolic comments aimed at the airline, including this twitpic with the caption "Look how fat I am on your plane! Quick! Throw me off!" The airline later apologized for their actions

apparently, this guy was being thrown away from taking a flight because he is too FAT...!! yes people, u heard me, because he is too FAT...!! LoL

moral of the story: dun be a FAT ASS...!!

Survivor Heroes vs Villains

2010-02-19T23:10:00.008+08:00

currently im addicted watching survivor and the amazing race

but today will dicuss on the survivor only :D

ok i've been a fan of survivor since season 1..

yes folks, since SEASON 1..

woOOohoOo...!!

screww you GLEE..!! and SCREW you American IDOL..!!

boOOoo...!!

ok lemme explain a bit bout survivor 20th

Heroes vs Villains

this season, they have 20 people from the previous season

well u can called it as an All-Star season

10 heros vs 10 villains

so basically 1st, the devided in 2 groups

of course, the heroes and the villains

so they will fight againts one another

and whoever team loses, will go to tribal council

where they voted one of their members

its like man eating man :D

after that, in certain stages, they will merge

after merging tribe, they will be againts each other

whoever voted out after merges, will be the jury

the task of a jury is to determine which player they think deserve to win....

ONE MILLION US DOLLAR

in this season, on side of the heroes, would like to see Amanda win..

she's been playing before.. TWICE and both being runner up.

hope she can win big this time..

and for the villain i support 3 people to win this :D

Parvati, Rob Boston and Russel

i like parvati because she's one sneaking, hot ass chic and will do whatever to win..

she's the best female player ever...!!

Boston Rob.. ahhhh i like him after watching him playing in season All-Star survivor..
there, he met Amber and through all the way to final 2 with her..

now he's married with Amber and they hav children together :D

Boston Rob is like the mafia hehehehe

lastly, Russel.. the Villain from Samoa season

self-proclaimed the genius player of all time..

last season he did played the best game ever and goes to final

but lost to a girl.. hahahahahha

so hopefully one of these four players will win Survivor 20th

Heroes vs Villains

NBK

2010-02-19T18:27:00.003+08:00

when i said i never been kissed.. people wont believe me..

but why ar???

~huhuhhuhuu~

seriously, i never been kissed during high school... huhuhuuhh but i've done lot worst than kissing :D

Potluck at Naddy's house~

2010-02-19T10:57:00.002+08:00

Type: Party - House Party
Network: Global
Start Time: Thursday, February 25, 2010 at 8:00pm
End Time: Friday, February 26, 2010 at 1:00am
Location: Naddys House, BBP Block C.

Description

Ever wonder how I lived ?? I am finally opening my door to you.Potluck to celebrate the CNY. This is the chance to show your culinary skills and feed us! No dresscode no burden to impress us on your fashion skills ! Come as you are!! ;))) - I am willing to change time based on your requests. This date is not fixed. So any comments and requests ,feel free to express.

holiday...~

2010-02-19T10:31:00.007+08:00

how i wish, right now im stranded on a beach~

where the sand is pure white~

and the water is crystal clear~

then i can go laying around

sun-bathing

wit cute boys and girls sorrounding me

ahhhhhh it feel sOOoo good

but

it would be also nice if i can rent a movie

watching with my loves one (whoever that is)

but arghhhhhh

back to reality..

now im playing with my

what a loser~

gelodak jiwa

2010-02-17T02:33:00.004+08:00

sindrom kepayahan tido, kembali menyerang..
biasa nya, susah tidor sbb aku rasa keseorangan.. lonely feeling
terasa diri nie macam single plak..

single ke aku?
kalau aku berpunya, biasa nya aku senang tido
bila rasa single je, susah nk tido..

aku rasa rimas..
lemas..
tido sorang sorang..

ni baru lepas buat air milo panas..
hopefully lepas ni, dapat tido.

ni petua petua omputih,
kata nya, lepas minum hot chocolate,
boleh tido da..

cuba je laaaa

pelik

2010-02-15T12:56:00.000+08:00

saya demam~ dua hari da demam~ dan saya juga 2 hari tak mandi sbb air takde~

getting in shape

2010-02-12T21:23:00.003+08:00

Killer Move: The Plank
Goal: To condition your entire core
Frequency: Four times a week
Directions:
- Get into a push-up position with your forearms on the floor.
- Lift your legs and torso up off the ground so that only your toes and the flats of your forearms remain on the floor.
- Keeping your back neutral and your belly button pulled in, hold this position for 20-60 seconds.
- Repeat for 3-5 sets.
Killer Move: Butterfly Abs
Goal: To work your deep abs while getting a flat, sexy stomach
Frequency: Four times a week
Directions:
- Sit comfortably on a gym mat or carpet with your legs crossed. Using your arms to support you, slowly lie back until your body is flat, keeping your legs crossed.
- Place your hands under the nape of your neck for support. Inhale through your nose, and raise your chest a few inches off the floor while exhaling through your mouth. Your chest should be moving up toward the ceiling, not bending forward to your knees. This should be a smooth, controlled motion.
- Repeat 25 times, and as you progress, move up to 50 times.
- Tip: Do not push your head with your hands as this puts you at risk of injuring your neck. The purpose of your hands is to keep your head in alignment with your back and shoulders. You don't want to curve your back.

(courtesy of yahoo.com)

collections

2010-02-11T18:56:00.005+08:00

jacket: Zero Black Rm 149.00 (size:M)
jeans: Topman straight cut Rm 169.00 (size:30)
shirts: Tee's flee market

skarf at neck: Zara Rm 79.00 (free size)
Jacket: Red Homme Rm 149.00 (size:M)
Jeans: Topman Straight cut Rm 169.00 (size: 30)

quotes i adored... very laughable

2010-02-10T00:29:00.003+08:00

Every woman should have four pets in her life. A mink in her closet, a jaguar in her garage, a tiger in her bed, and a jackass who pays for everything by Paris Hilton

i think fame is harder when people have something to hide, but I`m very comfortable, and have nothing to hide.. by nicole Richie

I don't believe in guilt, I believe in living on impulse as long as you never intentionally hurt another person, and don't judge people in your life. I think you should live completely free. by Angelina Jolie

When you're young you believe it when people tell you how good you are. And that's the danger, you inhale. Everyone will tell you you're a genius, which you are not, and if you understand that, you win. by George Clooney

I'd rather be black than gay because when you're black you don't have to tell your mother... by Charles Pierce

A woman is the full circle. Within her is the power to create, nurture and transform.... by Diane Mariechild

tubuh gebu ku

2010-02-08T19:48:00.001+08:00

lihat lah tubuh ku yg seksi.. untuk tantapan umum.. ini adalah U bukan 18sx bukan 18pL tapi U.

alone

2010-02-06T23:00:00.003+08:00

I hear the ticking of the clock

I'm lying here the room's pitch dark

I wonder where you are tonight

No answer on the telephone

And the night goes by so very slow

Oh I hope that it won't end though

Alone

Till now I always got by on my own

I never really cared until I met you

And now it chills me to the bone

How do I get you alone

you don't know how long i have wanted

to touch your lips and hold you tight

You don't know how long I have waited

and I was going to tell you tonight

But the secret is still my own

and my love for you is still unknown

Alone

Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
Alone, alone

jeles

2010-02-04T00:05:00.001+08:00

saya dengan rela hati nya mengaku yang saya jeles melihat teman teman saya sudah bekerja... sbb nya, bila da bekerja, ada duit, bila ada duit, bole beli rumah, bila ada rumah, bole decorate rumah mengikut acuan yang kita nak...

maka saya sangat jeles.. terima kasih..

2010-02-03T16:47:00.003+08:00

hobi terbaru saya kini adalah

naked di bilik sbb cuaca panas
menggoyang kan punggung sambil mendengar lagu di bilik

terima kasih~

letter

2010-01-31T15:20:00.002+08:00

dear sunday..

i want you to know that im freaking bored at home. the weather is so hot today. i hope someone can take me away today.

please take me to an ice-cream shop. i wanna go to McD and eat their ice-cream sundae. right now im listening to adam lamber: for your entertainment. i hope someone can entertain me :(

yours sincerly
fucking freaking bored
mohamad arif

a piece of my mind

2010-01-30T10:56:00.003+08:00

i just want you to know that you are no longer fun since u dated him.. we're no longer like we use to be. fun, bitching each other around, chit chat a lot, webcamwhoring, giving present to me.. but since u dated him, it seems like we are parting away.

i still remember the day when i called u, the moment u step out from your house in puchong, then we chit chat through phone till u arrived malacca.

i miss the old days...... but since u found ur happiness im just happy for you.. but i do sometimes think of you.. hope u having a good time ya dear fren..

Anang: Separuh jiwaku pergi

2010-01-28T21:36:00.005+08:00

currently i addicted with this song... enjoy the lyrics :)

separuh jiwaku pergi

memang indah semua

tapi berakhir luka

kau main hati

dengan sadarmu

kau tinggal aku

benar ku mencintaimu

tapi tak begini

kau khianati hati ini

kau curangi aku

kau bilang tak pernah bahagia

selama dengan aku

itu ucap bibirmu
kau dustakan semua

yang kita bina

kau hancurkan semua

benar ku mencintaimu

berpoya poya dengan teman teman di seoul garden

2010-01-27T15:11:00.005+08:00

hikayat seekor lipas..

2010-01-27T08:31:00.006+08:00

malam tadi, seekor lipas, tetiba muncul dan cuba menggoda kaki ku, lalu aku mengambil air botol mineral water 1.5 liter dan cuba menghempap nya. apa kan daya, lipas itu berjaya melepas kan diri.. ku cuba mencari cari jikalau encik lipas menyembunyikan diri di belakang almari tapi tidak berjaya..

arghhh.. lantak lah encik lipas, lalu aku menyambung kerja ku, mengadap komputer sambil tengok porn. sedang aku sibuk melayari porn, encik lipas muncul kembali, tapi kini dengan ego nya, dia berada di atas meja ku.

lalu, aku mengambil cawan bekas mengisi pen pen aku, dan aku menindih encik lipas, wahahahah (dengan tawa yg sinikal), encik lipas tidak berjaya melari kan diri. dia di tindih dan meronta ronta minta di lepas kan.

OOo tidak ya encik encik lipas, kamo telah mencabar kesabaran ku. sedang encik lipas cuba merontan rontan, aku mengambil Ridsect, penyembur beracun.

aku meracuni encik lipas perlahan lahan. tapi encik lipas sangat gagah, dia masih meronta ronta minta di lepas kan dengan segala kekuatan yg ada. aku menyembur semburan beracun ke encik lipas kali kedua.

sudah ku nampak encik lipas semakin lemah, tidak bermaya untuk meronta ronta. aku tersenyum riang :D wahahaha aku berjaya mengalahkan encik lipas. kemudian, aku mengambil tisu, memegang sesungut encik lipas, lalu aku menghumbannya ke dalam toilet dan aku flush toilet tersebut.

maka berakhir lah riwayat seekor lipas.

sekian

(watak utama: encik lipas)

tewas di tangan aku

mmmmmmmm

2010-01-13T21:34:00.001+08:00

i just dunno wat to do...

help me... i feel ackward

jb jb jb

2010-01-11T15:05:00.000+08:00

weekend lepas, aku pergi melawat kawan2 aku kat jb, maka aku tumpang la si rumah azuan (bukan nama sebenar) kat jb. rumah dia majide. Tujuan aku g jb, bukan apa, bukan nk jumpa skandal ke apa ke, cuma nak melawat kawan aku di jb je.

setiba nya aku kat jb, si azuan nie pon amik aku, dia datang dengan karen (bukan nama sebenar), amik aku kat hentian larkin, pastu ajak aku g makan kat mana ntah. kat kedai makan tu, jumpa plakkk si kak mya, mona dan kawan nya. lepas tu, kitaorg lepak2 kat karaoke diva. heheheh karaoke lagi, ari tu baru je g karaoke kat redbox :P Diva ni, ada 2 cawangan je, satu kat jb, satu lagi kat shah alam, ni tempat kerja mona.

balik dari karaoke, kul 2 30am, aku balik si umah azuan. haaa sampai sampai je umah je, terjumpa plaaaaaaaaaaaaaakk Ratu Propa yg bernama samaran Orang Baru (dia ni propa tak konfiden so TL), terkejut si OB nie nampak aku. hehehehhe ada kisahhhh dengan si OB nie, kang aku citer ya. pastu tak sampai 5 minit kat umah azuan, kak mya dan karen call, ajak makan kat Danga Bay kata nya. so lepas letak barang2 semua, teruuuuuuuuuuuss ke Danga Bay,

aiyoooo makan hati kat sana, ramaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaai org org comel, bak kata pepatah tu, apa tu, merembes puki?? hehehehe tapi NO...!! aku tak tergoda sbb aku KONFIDEN ada org kat KL sedang menanti kasih sayang aku.. cehhh cehhh cehhh.. lepak2 kat sana sampai laa kul 3 lebih, pastu balik. Masa nk g Danga Bay tu, si OB ni sms laaa si Azuan, tanya dia, sms dia lebeh kureng macam nie "motip bawak musuh ketat aku balik???" hahahahahah musuh ketat kata nya.. ok meh aku citer pasal si OB nanti korang tak paham plakkk

OB atau nama nya M, dulu dia dok serumah ngan aku kat mlk, kitaorg sewa bertiga satu umah nie, aku dengan sorang hmate nie, study, si OB ni kerja nya dok umah sajok, so semua bil bil dia laa yg bayar kan, sewa umah, api air, internet segala, di pendek kan cerita, duet sewa umah 4 bulan, api air, internet, dia tak bayar...!! duit tu dia buat joli sakan kata nya, pastu dia main blah je dari umah, sempat plakkkkk curi barang aku. adoi. pastu pastu ada plak ceritera buruk ttg si OB nie (amboi gosip sakan aku), si OB nie mem propa semua org, yg konon nya, bapak dia da meninggal dunia walhal, masih sihat walafiat lagi.. ish ish anak apa laa nie, bole di panggil bangsat...!! anak derhaka. so sesaper yg kenal si OB nie, tolong lah berhati2...

ok sambung cerita, lepas balik dari danga bay, balik laa umah azuan, aku plakk kat umah azuan tak reti dok diam, kejap kejap ke toilet, nak ke toilet tu, kena lalu depan si OB sbb dia tido kat ruang tamu, hidop da macam menumpang je dia nie heheheheheh.. sesuaaaaaaaai...! dah tu plak, pintu toilet umah azuan bising. hahahah lagi laa dia stress.. lantak ko laaaa labu. nk buat camna, ko mmg LAYAK macam tu..

ok ok masuk ari sabtu, pergi lunch, dengan azuan dan si OB.. pelik kan, aku depan si OB nie, mmg aku TL (Tak Layan) dia cukup2, aku buat macam dia nie, batu di tepi jalan yg org tak peduli kewujudan nya. makan kat Danga Bay lagi, tapi tgahari takbley cuci mata.. banyak makcik2 dan pakcik2 je.. cehhhhhh pastu tu, balik lunch lepak kat umah. petang tu, si OB Gemok nie kuar, naik teksi uolss. kaya plak dia.. hahahahaha aku dan azuan da mmg merancang, mlm tu nk g tgok movie dengan kak mya dan karen. kitaorg tak bagitau OB ni pon plan kitaorg sbb mereka mereka mmg TL si OB. tapi OB je yg tak paham2.

pergi laa ke City Square, tapi sblm tu, pergi makan sup tulang kat Stulang. huishhhh sedapp yumm yumm, situ pon ramai anak ikan yg comel2.. even tukang amik order pon comel comel. hehehehehe... jumpa si Niel dengan anak ikan dia, si Arun yg malu malu konon. wekkkkkk. lepas makan, g CS laa nk tgok movie.

sampai kat CS, kul 10 15pm, sepatut nya kitaog tgok movie kul 10pm tapi da lambat kan, so diorang beli tiket movie kul 12am. adoi lama nk nunggu. sementara nk nunggu nie, lepak laa dulu kat ruangan hisap rokok kat tgkat 5 tu.

sampai sampai sana, terjuma plakkkkkkkkk dengan si OB Gemox nie. dia pon ada, tapi dia sorang je (kalau org da kaki propa, mmg takde kawan), dia pon tgok movie jugakkkkk tapi nasib tayangan dia kul 11pm. aku pon meng TL kan dia, g mampos sama ko gemok. nampak gemokz itu, aku ngantuk, lepas dia blah, aku segar hehehehe.. sementara nk nunggu movie, apa lagi, camwhore laaaa.. :P

lepas abis tgok movie, kitaorg g makan cucuk2 (atau nama lain nya steambot), masa kat sana, kami berempat, aku ternampak sorang kawan sekolah form 6 aku, lupa nama dia, dia dengan family, aku mmg haram jadah takkan tegur dia.. sbb apa? sbb dia percaya kata org lain yg memburuk kan aku tanpa bertanya perihal sebenar kat aku, makan steambot pon kat situ, ramai anak ikan comel. adoiyai cuci mata je aku nie tiap2 hari hehehehehe.. balik kul 3 lebih am.

mlm tu, kak mya, n karen, tumpang sama tido umah azuan :P wink wink* best diorang ada, tak kering gusi aku nie.. hehehehe

ok ahad.. pepagi lagi si karen ni da menjerit melalak suruh bangun.. bingit telinga, dah laa malam tadi tido kul 4 5 pagi, ni pepagi dia suruh bangun.. ingat kan da tengahari, rupa nya baru pukul 9 30am.. adoi gila meroyan perempuan ini.. nak taknak terpaksa laa bangun.... oh ya, si OB nie, pepagi da kuar umah, ada meeting kata nya.. baru kerja call centre nak meeting2 plakkkk ari ahad..

pukul 1 lebih, kami kuar umah, menuju ke city square sbb aku nk beli kasut.. sampai kat sana, terjumpaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa lagi si Gemok nie,dia ni, ada ada je di mana aku berada. takde life ka???

pastu bole plakkk nk joint kitaorg jalan2 n lunch sama kat CS.. lantak laa. masa makan kat foodcourt, dia nk menghanjeng kan aku, tapi bebudak nie TL dia. yang aku tak paham, si OB ni tak paham2 lagi ke yg bebudak nie TL dia??? atau dia da mmg takde kawan lain, so nak taknak, dia kena jugak tahan kan di TL ? ishh ishhh..

lepas makan, aku pon pusing2 CS cari kasut.. aku nie kalau da bab shopping, lupa semua menda.. hanya yg pernah shopping dengan aku je tau aku nie camna org nya :P aku lupa dunia. aku lupa segala nya.. dan semasa aku tgh shopping, si OB ni tanya kak mya, bole tak dia nk lempang aku (kak mya yg bagitau aku), haaa kalau berani, lempang laaa... kak mya plak dengan baik nya tanya dia, kenapa dia nie macam sakit hati ngan aku, boleh plakkkk dia jawab dia lupa.. aku tau dia actually sentap dan bengang dengan aku. well nak buat camna, da perangai macam hanjeng, kaki kencing, layak laaa hidup macam tu. tuhan balas segala perbuatan dia, dengan dia hidup dalam penuh kebohongan.

lepas abis shopping, kitaorg pon balik, tapi nyempat plakk singgah minum cendol, tapi non-ado cendol nya sbb da abis. adoi. masa lepak2 kat gerai cendol, datang pulakk segerombolan manusia. comel comel group mereka itu.. aiyo ramai org orang comel kat jb, teringin plakkk nak dok jb :P

masa tgh dok minum2, si gemox ni nak balik pulakkkkk... kata nya kawan dia da sampai kat umah, kawan sebontot dia la tu, dah tu, amik budak india. kata nya kawan sekerja, yoOOolaaaaa tu.. watever laa.. ko takde aku pon bahagia.

abis minum minum, terus balik umah azuan, rancangan nya, malam ini, nak ke Beach Club tgok live band, bila malam menjelma, memasing dok depan tv tgok Anugerah Juara Lagu.. aku plakktak minat sangat, so online online biasa je, tapi yang penting, kena tgok performance Yuna. Berhantu lagu yuna tu. lepas tgok Yuna, aku tertido, tak sempat nk tgok saper menang. takpe, azuan bole jadi 'astro' bole tanya dia saper menang.

isnin, pepagi lagi aku da balik melaka, ni skang ada kat melaka la nie. Home Sweet Home

aku dan aku

2010-01-07T09:55:00.003+08:00

mengucap kan terima kasih kepada

syafieq
shahriman
fadzali jaafar

atas hadiah yg di berikan, saya sangat sangat suka.. saya masih lagi menanti kan tawaran hadiah daripada

saranina ismail
muhammad bin izham
fardlin izreen

semoga mereka cepat2 bagi saya hadiah kerana ini tahun terakhir kita bersama ya. hehehehe

oh ya, harap2 ibu saya pon akan memberikan saya hadiah sebuah kereta, kerana menurut beliau (di saksikan saranina ismail dan syafieq yg ketika itu berada di Ikea), beliau akan membeli kan sebuah kereta pada minggu ini. jadi saya harap, bila saya balik kluang, kita akan pergi membeli kerta.

terima kasih

the day...

2010-01-04T03:11:00.002+08:00

a few hours before my bday, i received one sms.. and it changed my life. completely. im devastated, and speachless, and im clueless.

its 3am and i cant sleep. thinking of that one particular sms. i thought i knew him well but oh GOD...!!! wat am i supposed to do?????? give me strenght. i cant face him.

wat would u do, if a person that is soOoo close to you, accidently sending sms, that it would change ur life, forever. all this image that he build, gone just like that. i know i dun deserved to judged him but, oh GOD...!! help me. im not sure if i can bare this burden.

i'll make it short, i have this one guy, that i know him since i was born. and he married for more than 20 years. then he accidently send sms to me, and that sms contained something that is so shocking and it might cost him, his family. oh GOD..!! i cant imagined wat will happen?? i wanted to confront him but im afraid.

i felt so betrayed. although i always said i dun care, but i do care coz he is part of my life. arghhhhhhhhhhh...!! im in dilemma.. dilemma dilemma dilemma...

p/s: some information is not revealed coz i need to protect this person interest. some fact my change due to a personal reason

sudah broke

2009-12-31T08:49:00.001+08:00

huhuuuu saya sudah broke... semalam shopping barangan di ikea, membeli 1 meja study, dan 1 meja utk hadiah perkhawinan Hani.. kemudian malam itu saya shopping di KLCC, saya membeli kot, dan juga barangan Zara (which i still wondering why i bought that thing)..

malam nie, new year, kopak lagi.. adoi adoi... huhuhuhuuu :((

saya seorang yang...

2009-12-20T23:20:00.002+08:00

tamak~
suka berebut makanan~
gila kan duit~
kaki serabut~
pandai main squash~
suka cakap merepek~
suka mendengar gosip~
suka karaoke dan suara sedap macam josh groban~
cam whore~
meminati fran fine~
jenis suka merancang plan~
suka cakap benda lucah~
tak peduli jika orang mengata saya~
terover konfiden~
nakal~
tak suka amik tau hal semasa~
suka membebel~
suka memaki hamun orang~
seorang yang menepati masa~
tak suka bersendirian~
teringin berlatih strip pole dance~
tak suka tension~
hyperaktif~
suka membenci orang yg di benci~
suka berenang dan menganggap diri seekor ikan dolphin~
bukan seorang yg peramah~
suka cuaca yg sedang sedang sahaja~

funny...... for me

2009-12-18T14:59:00.002+08:00

i laugh while looking at my fren's website in facebook. im a mean mean person.. LoL

fashion tips for men

2009-12-16T23:34:00.003+08:00

There are plenty of reasons! Dressing the part plays a major role in many aspects of your life. Think about your work, your romantic life and your day to day activities.It's all about perception,

I've seen many people get promoted simply due to the fact that they have always looked professional. Maybe looking professional didn't get them the job but at least it got them the interview!

Most women also appreciate a man who knows how to dress, it makes them feel like their man is confident and accomplished. Perception is key in day to day activities and the way you dress has a huge impact on it.

It's a proven fact that it takes only 30 seconds for someone to make up their mind on what they think about you. Imagine if you look like a clown? I'm sure you get the picture.We should all take advantage of this and make sure we look our best in our day to day activities in case we have a chance for that special promotion, in case we meet that special someone, or simply just to look and feel fantastic!

here is a list of tips to help you and fashion mistakes to avoid.

Socks should match your pants. Easy as 1, 2, 3.
Belts should match your shoes. Not every one is color blind like you
Never wear both a belt and suspenders. The combination makes you appear less confident
Ties should reach your belt line. This is simply the rule. A short tie makes you look like a dufus.
Your shoes should be clean, shined, repaired and appropriate for the occasion. If you are wearing a suit, wear lace-up shoes. Don't forget to keep shoetrees in your shoes when you're not wearing them
Don't wear a short sleeve shirt in combination with a tie. Actually, never wear a short sleeve shirt period. People have the perception that short sleeve shirts are only worn by lower class people. You can wear one if you want to be a McDonald's manager, not if you want to exude a professional look
The Button-Down collar dress shirt is simply not suitable for dressy formal wear nor with a double-breasted suit. Why? Well even though it's now a business classic during the day, it was originally a sport shirt worn by polo players
Wear the right size pants ok? Pants are long enough if they have a slight break in the front. Pants should have enough length to cover up your socks, and your socks should be long enough to cover your shins even when you're legs are crossed. Pleats and cuffs both should be treated with respect. Pleats let you walk comfortably while looking professional and help a bigger man look great while cuffs will add weight to the bottoms of your pants sometimes giving them the perfect drape
Clashing or too many colors. Do you really want to look like a gay pride flag? Stick to complementary colors (those opposite from each other on the color wheel) or colors from the same pallet. You can find one on the web very easily by searching on google

makan

2009-12-11T20:10:00.001+08:00

hari hari makan daging.. komform aku gemok nanti.. bila laaa wei nak gi jogging lagi nie huhuuuhu.. merindui saat saat ke gym dan padang mmu... huhuhuhhu takde teman nak ajak ber excercise sama sob sob* sedihhhhhhhhhhhhhh....!!

suicide place

2009-12-08T20:12:00.003+08:00

i was thinking, maybe this is the best place to commit a suicide..

at the lrt train... i think it is cool to commit suicide at such place coz it will make people to afraid to use this transportation. its a jinx. and im gonna lay down, people will look at my body, murming, mourning, cursing, and etc..

the forensic will examine my body there, they gonna use chalk to draft my body measurement, taking pictures, carrying away my body, in a black pasltic beg. and my soul pondering around. a lost soul dunno which is way home.

i wonder, if i died, will people actually missing me? i guess not coz i dun think im nobody. well, maybe my family. but its ok. everything gonna be just fine. sooner or later, they gonna forget me.

the place when im gonna be dead

but before i died, im gonna thax my family and my fren for all the support they showed to me. may i rest in peace....

lalink..

2009-12-06T15:11:00.002+08:00

althou we always on the phone, sms or chat, i still miss u like hell.. even if i meet u always, i still miss u sOOo much.. wait ya, 5 more month, and i'll be working in kl, then we can stay together..

ikea...

2009-12-05T21:59:00.003+08:00

gi ikea tadi. meneman kan si syafieq (bukan nama sebenar) mencari barangan di ikea. 2 jam di ikea, melilau mata sana sini mencari barang, pastu da jumpa, pergi laaa ke kaunter nak bayar, otw nak bayar, gatal plakkk nak pergi ikano..

pikir pikir balik, takkan nak masuk ikano dengan barangan ikea, kalau sikit takpe, kalau bawak kereta pon takpe, ni naik cab je, maka di tinggal kan laaa barangan yg da pilih tapi belom bayar kat ikea. jalan punya jalan, masuk ikano, membeli pula barangan baju si teman saya ini, 3 pasang baju dan sehelai seluar jeans yg di belinya. huhuhuh saya plak, sedihhhhhhhhh sbb duit belom masuk lagi. kalau tak, da angkut da satu jaket dan sepasang kasut...

pas masuk ikano, singgah plakkk the curve, mencari barangan utk hadiah pengantin, ternampak kedai bodyshop, singgah kejap, pot pet pot pet dengan salesgirl dia sbb nak tanya beberapa barangan di situ, singgah je tapi tak beli apa apa pon dulu. sbb nak survey lagi, pusing pusing the curve, patahhhhhhhhh balik bodyshop, pot pet pot pet dengan 'akak' salesgirl lain plak.. hehehe akhir nya, ada laa membeli barangan di situ,

opss sedap sedar da 3 jam kat the curve, adoiyai, barangan ikea belom beli lagi, so patahhhh balik ke ikea, tapi kali nie, tak lama, setengah jam je kot kat sana, sbb da tau nak beli apa da, syafieq (bukan nama sebenar) membeli 2 meja kecik ikea yg berharga rm 39.00 setiap satu, colour merah dan putih. comel arrrr meja kecik tu. hehehehehe. okeh, semua barang yg nak, da dapat da, so masa utk balik,

pergi laaa mencari teksi, tanya teksi berapa harga tambang balik ke sentul timor.. KIMAKKKK...!! 35 hinggit, lahanat, tadi naik teksi ke ikea baru 18 hinggit, ni nak balik 2 kali ganda, mmg tak ar..!! so pergi tanya cab lain, nasib ada sorang abang ni (pemandu teksi lain) cakap, kalau nak teksi murah, jangan naik teksi yg da sedia menunggu kat situ, nak teksi murah, tahan teksi yg tgh berjalan.

dapat tahan satu teksi hijau, uncle nie mmg best, dia punya teksi mmg pakai meter, dia pon siap kutuk2 pemandu teksi lain yg tak suka pakai meter, dia cakap, itu bodoh punya org pemalas nak hantar pastu nak charge mahal2, ada org nak naik, amik je laa, rezeki masuk. bagus laa otak uncle nie sbb dia tak berkira sangat, huh naik teksi dia sampai depan umah baru 18 hinggit, kira ok ar, dari nak bayar 35 kan,

so sampai umah, tolong laaa si syafieq ni pasang kan meja dia, comel plakkk bila da siap pasang (nak curik satu nie nanti wahahahhaahhaha), best pasang pasang meja nie, baru laa jantan tau buat kerja berat. hehehehehheh

ok skang nie, da mandi, da online, nak tgok tv pastu tidoOOoo... wekkkkkkkk

and so i said so

2009-12-03T20:21:00.003+08:00

honestly, i dunno wat else i want (in terms of material), coz all i know, i hav things i want, guess im a simple person.. LoL (as if), but if people asked me wat i wanted for my bday, i would say, i want to spend that day with the person i like, i love.

just the two of us, walking along the beach (fantasi nie), holding hands, sit on the sand and kiss each other up. then a suprise me with a bday cake (btw i loOOoove chocolate cake), and a gift ( i loOoove suprises),

but as far as i can remembered, i only celebrated once for my birhday. and i truely cherrish that moment, my first love, A, gave me a shoes, converse, till now im wearing it, Q, my second ex, gave me g-shock watch, which im still wearing it, and long lost scandal (hahahah ada skandal nie) gave me a Guess watch,

i remembered lynn, she gave a me a chocolate the nite before my bday coz when we went out that nite and, it was also the nite before our exam, oh oh dun forget she also gave me red shirt, LoL, and nina, she gave me a necklace which i still have it in my safety box (safe laa sangat),

oh oh pleasseeeeeeeeeeee dun give me books, t-shirt, bangles, but i prefer something that i can show off to people and it is practical for me to use it heheheheh, oh oh hopefully i'll get a new car from my parents next month, i'll consider it as bday gift laaaaa.. hehehehe

anyway, my wish is always the same, that wat im hoping for, for my bday, is to be with the one i love :) lurve kamo lalink..!!

updating list in want for my coming bday

2009-12-03T16:42:00.004+08:00

well these are the list i want for my birthday.. im not picky, anyone can give me anything but i will let people know what i want laaaa... hehhehehe

Sony ericsson K810i (check)
T-shirt from banana republic (not yet)
jacket (not yet)
shoes size 7 (check)
mechanical pencil (check)
men's accessories (check)
beg (check)
PS 2 (not yet)
pants (check)
stay in genting 3 days 2 nite (not yet)
free ticket concert (check)
CD's song.. i like jazz (joss stone), r&b (check)
shorts (check)
underwear size M (check)
necklace (check)
housing accessories (check)

anyway.. i just accept watever people wanna give to me...
and by the way.. my birthday is on JANUARY,4th .......
but the best gift im hoping for, is to be with my sayang...

confession of a crazy man

2009-12-02T22:47:00.002+08:00

i wanna take over the world.
i wanna be rich,
i wanna people to bow to me,
i wanna be sneaky,
i wanna be sarcastic,
and i wanna be on TOP of the world..

and i know how to achieve all this :D wahahahahahahah (evil laugh)

chess game

2009-12-01T23:37:00.004+08:00

i used to play chess. but not in the mini chess game. but i used to play chess in a love game. i've always considered love, as a game play. one mistake move, will cost u, ur live. its either u win, or u lose in the game of love.

i've been playing this game, for the past 6 years. since my 1st love, till my recent ex. in this game, i need to be one step ahead of them.

i need to move my pawn carefully, knocked down their knight, knocked down their queen, and lastly, knocked down their king. i'll move my bishop, my rock, my knight, my pawn and my queen to conquer their king.

actually im pretty good at this game, coz at the end of the day, when i managed to knocked down my opponents, mean that i conquer the heart of my love ones. it feels good. but this dont last long.

at the end of the day, i feel bored. for me, the game will only stop when both players have no desire to play the game anymore. but most of all, wat makes me sick with this game, is that, i always need to be cautious wit every move i made. i always need to be alert wit my sorroundings.

i stopped playing chess after i ended my relationship with 'E'. after 'E', i realized, its pointless to force myself loving people who dun love me. i mean, if they want me, they should accept the way i am. i have objective in life. and i dun think anyone knows wat is my objective. i kept it to myself. because one day, when i achieve my dreams, i will definitely feel good about it. its ok if people think that im not paying seriously with life, coz i know wat i want and i'll get wat i want.

genting... theme park

2009-12-01T21:50:00.002+08:00

30 November 2009, i went to genting with my very good buddy. it was a vacation that i really needed. i was so happy spending time in genting. althou i didnt get to play all the game there, but i had fun. it was the happiest moment in my life in 2009.

i hope this will not be the end and it is the starting point in my life. i really miss Genting..

......

2009-11-26T09:15:00.002+08:00

it is so painful for me to view ur profile and see ur pictures everyday, knowing that you're gonna leave, makes my heart in pain, i have developed strong feelings towards you, hoping that when u leave me, u wont forget me but im preparing for the worst...

kerna kamo

2009-11-26T00:10:00.001+08:00

sudah gemok sket sbb makan 2 pinggan mee bandong di muar

ari yg sangat best..

2009-11-25T13:45:00.002+08:00

exam tadi sempat tiru, wahahha saper suruh ko dok bawah aku, pastu tulis jawapan taknak cover cover, mmg sah sah aku tiru

semalam

2009-11-25T09:30:00.002+08:00

semalam, saya dalam berada dalam keadaan di luar jangkaan,
saya berasa kekosongan,
tapi kepala saya terasa sangat berat,

saya tido awal,

bangun jam 2am pagi, tiada siapa di sebelah saya,
cuaca pon sejak kebelakangan ni sejuk sangat,
lalu saya bangun menuju ke lapi saya, dan online,

tiada siapa pon yg online,
lalu saya membuka satu website ini,
saya nonton, dan gelak seorang diri,

The Nanny,
pengubat hati kekosongan saya,
melihat kan telatah Fran Fine dan Mr. Sheffield,
membuat kan saya teringat sesuatu,

tapi .......

when i...

2009-11-25T03:01:00.002+08:00

when im in a depressed mode, i need someone to consult me,
when im all alone, i need someone to be there for me,
when im sick, i need someone to take care of me,
when im fall, i need someone to holds me,

but is it possible to wish something like that? and when i walked along the road of sadness, there will no turning back as i dun wish to look back. let my heart carried away by this lonely feelings.

so done

2009-11-02T06:46:00.003+08:00

Seems like just yesterday

You were a part of me

I used to stand so tall

I used to be so strong

Your arms around me tight

Everything it felt so right

Unbreakable like nothing could go wrong

Now I can't breathe

No I can't sleep

I'm barely hanging on

Here I am Once again

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it

Can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up deep inside

But you won't get to see those tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything

Opened up and let you in

You made me feel alright for once in my life

Now all that's left of me

Is what I pretend to be

So together but so broken up inside

Cause I can't breathe

No, I can't sleep

I'm barely hanging on

Here I am Once again

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it

Can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up deep inside

But you won't get to see those tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out

For hating you, I blame myself

Just seeing you it kills me now

Now I don't cry On the outside... anymore!!!

Here I am Once again

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it

Can't pretend Just thought you were the one

Broken up deep inside

But you won't get to see those tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am Once again

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it

Can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up deep inside

But you won't get to see those tears I cry

Behind these hazel eyes

had enough

2009-10-30T14:39:00.002+08:00

sha la la la~ wont bother bout other people (hahahaha dunno how many times i said this) but period. stop..!! no more..!! die die die..!! haahaha watever happen happen

special ka??

2009-10-26T22:37:00.002+08:00

ada org kata aku nie special.. tapi special ka aku nie? aku pon pelik sbb aku tak rasa diri aku special. biasa biasa je. dah laa jahat, blur, nakal plak tu, tak pernah dengar cakap, suka bebel, tu ciri ciri special ke? biasa je kot.
ermmm mungkin sbb aku ni jenis carefree kot. jenis yg nampak relax, takde masalah, suka buat hal sendiri. tapi ntah laa..
lantak laa kalau org kata aku special. tapi aku rasa diri aku special sbb aku rasa someday nanti aku akan jadi org yg penting utk negara. hahahahaha cita cita nie...!!

may be...

2009-10-15T18:34:00.002+08:00

yeah i was thinking why im always num 2 when it comes in a relationship... may be its because of my life.. im living in a fast life. i mean, im always on the go, and hip, and active. may be some people are afraid that they might not catch up with me or cope up with my life.

some people think im a very demanding person and living in luxurious. but the truth is, im living in a simple life but i made it looks like its worth it.

im always on the go, it mean that im always up to something. i dun like to sit at home doing nothing. i like to do watever i wanna do while i still can.

but if people think i dun worth to be with them, well screwed them coz i know wat im capable of. anyway, i like having a life like this. its enjoying.

things i dont like to see

2009-10-14T23:19:00.002+08:00

orang yang tak pandai beratur masa kat LRT/Monorail/Komuter (bodoh ke tak nampak line sila beratur)
orang yang cakap kuat kuat masa dlm lrt.. hey bongok nak gosip pi balik umah
orang yang berbau dlm lrt... bawak ar perfume ke mana jua anda berada macam aku nie.
orang yang perasan bagus... apa jeling2.. ko ingat aku tgok ko sbb ko cantik ke?????
apabila aku menjadi orang-2.. asyik num 2 je.. bila nk jadi num 1 nie?????
apabila orang itu terlebih knowledge.. aiyoyo kalau cakap menda betul takpe, jangan main bedal je
ORANG YANG SELALU TAK ON TIME..!! kalau da lambat tu, tak paham2 inform awal2?
orang yang asyik main miss call je.. ADOI..!! harap hp je canggih.. pakai r bil

New Phone, New Life, New Beginning

2009-10-06T02:32:00.003+08:00

i've got new phone.. a "fren" of mine, hehehehe bought my new phone from UK.. i was so excited when i got this new phone. a simple brief of my new phone

Samsung Tocco Lite (S5230) announced in the UK

Samsung Tocco Lite is the latest full-touch handset to be announced by Samsung for the UK market. Unfortunately, the phone does not have 3G connectivity, but that’s why it will be offered for an “ultra competitive” price. The Tocco Lite is actually Samsung S5230, the handset we saw back in March alongside the Samsung S5600. The different moniker is used by Samsung due to the fact that its Tocco brand has become quite popular in the UK (the F480 and the UltraTouch S8300 are sold under this brand).

The features of Tocco Lite include:

Quad-band GSM/GPRS/EDGE connectivity
3 inch TFT touchscreen display with 262K color and 240 x 400 pixels
TouchWiz UI
Accelerometer
Facebook, MySpace and YouTube widgets
Bluetooth 2.1
Samsung DNSe 2.0 music technology
FM Radio with RDS
3.2 MP camera
50 MB of built-in memory
microSD card support, up to 8 GB
104 x 53 x 11.9 mm

Samsung Tocco Lite / S5230 will be available in the UK starting May.

raya situation

2009-09-20T08:59:00.003+08:00

when u wake, first thing in mind, wat time is the raya prayer? then taking shower, and get ready. after getting ready, with the cloth on, wearing baju melayu/kurung cantik cantik, then having breakfast with family.

oOOo shit, got stain on shirt. damn..!! panic panic..!! then asked mom wat to do..?? wat to do?? huhuhhu raya prayer is almost start..!! huhuhuh

oh shit..!! need to send sister in law to cemetery, she want to visit her late son. aiyaya.. nevermind, send her first, mom trying to fix the stain on my baju melayu. huhuhuhhu
ok returned back home, waaaaaaaa...! lucky mom can clean the stain. yes.. wat?? raya prayer almost start?? argued with dad where to pray huhuhuh.. dad ride bicycle while im driving.. huh lets see who's arrive first. wahahahahhaha

at the mosque, look around, see other people wearing the baju melayu. waaaaaa is anyone shirt prettier than me? does their sampin match with their baju melayu? wahahahaha

finish prayer, went back home, str8 away online FB. playing the restaurant city game :P while waiting people to come over to my place for marhaban, after that, we whole family gather gather together and ask forgiveness. hope mom, dad, and big bro gonna give me duit raya coz i really really need it.. huuhuuhuhuu

ok till next time.. buh bye

take a guess

2009-09-02T21:05:00.000+08:00

guess which one resemble me the most??

sex

2009-08-28T09:05:00.002+08:00

this morning, matt argued with about sex. i told him that we cant get satisfaction by sleeping with some but not having sex. but as always, matt opposed me.

he said satisfaction can be obtained just by sleeping with someone u like although there is no sex involved.

i mean, come on, without sex, how can u cum? unless the person sleep next to you is super gorgeous and hot and u cant handle urself, then u can cum without noticing it.. u know its like when you having a wet dreams.

but how often does that come? hmmmmm but cumming without having sex need lots of focusing and imagination right? like i told u, when we are having wet dreams.

anyway, i think this topic is debatable. so it is up to anyone to think, how can we get satisfaction without having sex.

thank God

2009-07-31T12:57:00.001+08:00

im happy to see my ex is happy with their new partner

im happy with my life too.. althou i'm single but it wont be long..

soon im gonna be with my loves one. it just a matter of time....

golfing

2009-07-23T20:41:00.003+08:00

golf is nice to release tension but im not encouraging people to play golf coz it will give you a pain on ur back.. huhuhu we have to like bend a bit, and twist ur waist and u had to make sure the hands is in the right position and aim at the ball and hit the ball correctly and hardly as u can..

but at the end of the day, i cant play golf coz for me, golf is booOoooring

cara2 utk menjeleskan saranina

2009-07-15T21:53:00.003+08:00

sara nina ismail.... jangan jeles les les hehehehehehehehehehhe next time, jangan hilang kan diri, dan sentiasa berada di melaka ok.. bwekkkkkk

....

2009-05-31T11:51:00.000+08:00

yeah its been a while i havent update anything in my blog... going to penang island in several hours later.
so gonna update once i came back laa... daaaa..!!

cant wait kayaking around penang island

anorexia

2009-04-26T10:24:00.002+08:00

these past few weeks, my loveable fren, nina and matt told me im an anorexia. simply because i dun eat that much.. LoL i was on extremely diet because i want to tone down my stomach.

but the truth is, how am i suppose to eat when im not hungry??? huhuhuuhu i dun wanna eat just because people are eating. i dun wanna get fat and become like mr. fat ass who used to be my housemate few years back.

fat is a big NO NO for me. so i need to shape up my body and look good. btw, im going to penang for kayaking and also pangkor on june, so i need to look good when wearing those cute swimming trunk hehehehehehe

any tips how to maintain my stomach.??? huhuhu i dun want it to look flabby but i need to look flat... hehehehehehe

the true nature me???

2009-04-25T11:10:00.003+08:00

I purposely steal this from Cik Melur Sara Nina Yang Makin Kembang and re-arranged it according to my understanding of myself

Your view on yourself:
out-going person, frenly, loyal to frenz, easy-going, not so smart, annoying, hot-tempered person, loud and bold

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
bad boy/bad girl but not trashy, who knows wat he/she want in life

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
Ready to get married

The seriousness of your love:
im totally serious with my love life and nothing will change that.

Your views on education
everyone deserved to get education. people with the brain (i mean smart) really turn me on. wink wink*

The right job for you:
Personal Assistant?? or i gues Lawyer will be great. or let just say, i like to meet people.

How do you view success:
when you out-smarted the others, then you are a successful person :D

What are you most afraid of:
being alone.

Who is your true self:
confident, honest, true to myself, Loud and bold

True? You think?

the man and woman in me.. hahahah damn funny

2009-04-24T13:34:00.004+08:00

have u guys ever experimenting ur face expression and wat is it like being someone else?

well this is me... the manly me.. hahahaha

and this is me.. after make over..

do i look gorgeous or wat???? hahahahahahahaha

p/s: im not gonna dragg and will ever not hahahaha.. this is for fun only.. my witness is matty and sara nina.. they saw me experimenting my face expression..

p/s 2: wat should i call myself?? hahahahaha

mama, ku mau kawin

2009-04-24T00:20:00.002+08:00

yeay..!! yeay..!! akhir nya hati ini da yakin yg aku tak minat dengan ex ex aku lagi mahupon skandal skandal yg sedang mendekati diri ini.

sebab nya, aku da ada pilihan hati.. heheheh tahun 2012 komform nak kawin,

yup walaupun terlalu awal tapi ntah ekk nak kawin gak tahun 2012.. so hopefully dapat abiskan study ini dengan cepat nya..

thank you

2009-04-14T09:22:00.003+08:00

saban hari aku memikirkan..

kekadang kebahagiaan tak datang dengan mudah. tapi bila memikirkan yg kita da ada kebahagiaan tu, ia tak kekal lama pulak. haihhhhhh

sabar je la ya.. nak citer, tak best plak sbb kang bukak citer kawan bak buka pekung kat dada dia. tapi takpe, tetap sokong dia. buat je yg terbaik. aku ttp sokong kawan aku

my target

2009-04-04T09:14:00.002+08:00

i wanna have a body like this... coming soon ya

2nd day Anugerah Bintang Popular roadshow

2009-03-29T23:19:00.007+08:00

Endra managed to go final but he didnt win. huuhhhu so sad that he didnt win but he tried his best. even mom told him, there'll be another time for him. mommy so sporting supporting my fren althou it was her first time meet endra.

he sang Mungkin by Anuar Zain

the litle girl i mentioned ealier on

on the right, 3rd place, 2nd place and lady with tudung winners.

oh well althou he didnt win, he had a good time. all the contestant are really good. after the competition, we went take picture at the Kluang Railway station

somehow, i dun like this pic.. urghhhh

anugerah bintang popular.. BatuPahat Mall

2009-03-28T22:24:00.006+08:00

A fren of mine joined this singing competition held by the Anugerah Bintang Popular Berita Harian. While i was there, i admired those people who have the courage to joined such competition and exposed themselves to the public.

HOWEVER, there are some people who does not joint the competition and has the guts to critisized other people's effort. i mean hey atleast they wanted to follow their dreams and who knows they might win.

ok for an example, there was this young girl aged 10, joint the competition, when she sang, there are other people complaining that she is not singing but she was spelling the lyrics, but then, she proved to these people that she can actually sing. she wowed the judges and now qualifying herself to final which is tomorrow.

AND of course my fren, ENDRA joint this competition and he also qualified to final. yeay..!! cant wait to see him singing tomorrow.

the stage

endra singing 3 songs just now and also wowed the judges.

ok after the singing competition, endra and i decided to watch the animal fair. and guess what, i take a pic with big snake, i think it was anaconda. and watch carefully my face expression. huhuhuuh

i was scared man.. seriusly

endra look amazing with the snake... and also he posed with.........

the monkey....

well until next time.. tomorrow im going to update in whats happening during the Final show k.

family outing

2009-03-28T00:19:00.004+08:00

my eldest brother, my sister and i went to play bowling at the kluang parade and guess what? i had strike 4 times in a row.. something that never happen to me LoL.. damn happy laaa.. then 'ketuk' my brother to buy satay for the family hehehee..

me and my brother

my sister

wild,wild web: is cyber crime reigning on a no man's land?

2009-03-12T20:43:00.000+08:00

.. gimme idea please...

.....

2009-03-09T22:17:00.003+08:00

dalam kereta endra, tgh jalan kat highway ternampak kereta yang sebiji macam kereta aku.

(me) u, u, kereta i ngan kereta tu mana lagi nampak best?

(endra) kereta dia lagi nampak best, kereta arif tu kereta flinstone k..

(me) ya ke? adoi...~ yang penting, boleh gerak k.. flinstone pon flinstone laaaa

(adik sarawak) ~ sedap menggelakkan aku

ada ke kereta aku di kata nya kereta flinstone???

my fren

2009-03-06T10:40:00.002+08:00

i am

2009-03-06T10:37:00.002+08:00

i am lound, i am boast, i am arrogant, i am psycho, i am hot tempered.

thats what makes me, me....

p/s: dear my fren im sorry if i hurt ur guys feeling coz it is not my intention to do so. truely deeply from the bottom of my heart im sorry

dun lie

2009-03-05T21:09:00.003+08:00

no, no,no, no, baby, no, no, no, dun lie...~

dun brag bout sumthing which is not so big deal..

so wat u achieve something that i dun?

i aint cry for something that aint worth it

mooting 1st round

2009-03-03T23:15:00.005+08:00

my partner and i, fardlin izreen againts the team of fisha and azie farhana.

won the 1st round and hoping we can go to the 2nd round..

lyn and me

with the opposition team, fisha and azie farhana

something wrong... hmmmmm

2009-03-03T22:26:00.002+08:00

yeah its been a while i havent write anything in my blog.

just wanna say, thank you for waking me up from dreams.

i realized i dun have the obligation to inform other people the knowledged that i gain if they didnt ask me.

and i dun have the obligation to be too concern bout other people's life although it is in favour of them..

it seems wrong with the statement but well wat can i say, i just need some changes due to the adviced i received..

Ghani & Co.

2009-01-29T17:39:00.002+08:00

well its my last day at work. i have been doing nothing much since this morning. its not that im feeling sad leaving this place. i just cant wait to leave this place :P but unfortunately, i didnt meet michelle, yoke wah and sussine for the last time.. well i cant say its for the last time coz i'll be still around kl.

one thing i can say during this attachment programme is that i really had a blast while working here, sorrounded by nice people and well althou sometimes it can be boring in the office coz the people here errr they are not in my group of age if u know wat i mean but still, i had a blast.

i had fun on every single day i worked so no complaining. plus, they paid me so just shut up and be thankfull. heheheheh. well i might not post many pic at my work place coz the people here im not sure why, they dun take a lot of pic together. i wonder why huhuhuhuu..

anyway, i would like to thax all the people in Ghani & Co. for helping and being there for me when i needed their help. thax again.

p/s: i heard lots rumor LoL.. i am so love hearing gossip :P

stupid conversation

2009-01-25T11:55:00.002+08:00

suddenly someone just hate for nor reason. honestly i didnt even knoow this guy but he kept on messaging me. since i didnt even know him, normally i will layan kan jeeeeeeeeee.. hehehehe

musk_kemal: foto kamu jelek ah
arIpz..~: jelek tu apa
musk_kemal: lihat dulu website gue ama teman teman
musk_kemal: kamu org biasa aje
musk_kemal: buruk rupa buruk lagi perangai lue
arIpz..~: saya keliru.. kenapa kamu mengutuk saya?
arIpz..~: apa pernah saya buat sama kamu?
musk_kemal: or5g bodoh hanya nggak tau
arIpz..~: kamu mengeji saya?
musk_kemal: buka aje kamus
arIpz..~: kenapa kamu mengeji saya? apa yg sudah saya lakukan sama kamu?
musk_kemal: kok kamu mulai dgn marah
musk_kemal: gue biasa aje
arIpz..~: iya saya marah kerana kamu mengeji saya
arIpz..~: sedangkan saya tidak buat apa apa sama kamu
musk_kemal: kita semua baik aje
musk_kemal: kamu aje yg emosi
musk_kemal: makanya hati mku nggak baik
arIpz..~: kamu kata saya berperangai buruk
arIpz..~: kamu mmg suka mengeji orang lain kah? sedangkan saya tidak berbuat apa apa
musk_kemal: syukur gue punya ramiai teman yg baik
musk_kemal: udah ketemu lagi
arIpz..~: ok ok begini saja ya
musk_kemal: mesra nya selangit
arIpz..~: kalau kamu punya teman2 baik, kamu usah lagi berchatting dengan saya
arIpz..~: beres?
musk_kemal: krna saya baik saya mulai dgn baik
musk_kemal: tapi kamu kok nggak
musk_kemal: udah lah
musk_kemal: gue bukan kurang teman
arIpz..~: ok terima kasih atas segala nasihat kamu itu
arIpz..~: simpan aja ya
arIpz..~: saya tidak mahu kedengaran apa apa lagi
musk_kemal: ramai teman cakep lagi juga baik hati
arIpz..~: saya tak bisa mencaci org
musk_kemal: di bandingkan dgn kamu jauh sekali
arIpz..~: iya. kamu yg terbaik
musk_kemal: kayak bumi dgn langit
arIpz..~: saya yg terburuk
musk_kemal: ya udah
arIpz..~: semoga kamu bahagia
musk_kemal: gw mau email teman teman gue
arIpz..~: ya bagitau saja
musk_kemal: banyk yg belum di balaS
arIpz..~: ok balas saja pada mereka
musk_kemal: MAKANYA JG SOMBONG
musk_kemal: MAU BAIK HATI
arIpz..~: iya saya sombong, kamu idak, saya jahat kamu baik
musk_kemal: BANYK YG DISAYANGI
musk_kemal: DENGAR ITU PESAN GW
arIpz..~: iya semua menyayangi kamu, org tidak menyayangi saya
musk_kemal: BYE
arIpz..~: bye smoga bahagia

for musk kemal, sorry i totally forgot who you are. and sorry coz i dun even wanna know u at all.. LoL.. seriusly.