i am nice

well well.. i was indeed in despair but that doesnt hold me for long coz now i truly believe that you wasnt meant for me. no matter how hard i tried, u keep on pushing me aside. apart from that, u closed your heart from me. i knock and knock and knock but the result is still the same. yeah well, i know u're a stubborn but i dun expect this stubborn. but hey guess i just need to keep on walking and leave the past behind.

anyway it was good to share a good memories with u. hahaha we walked together and share bout our secrets and thats why i truly believe that you and i, we hav something special going on, but indeed i was wrong. but trust me, i dun blame u nor myself, just like u said, this was just too fast. and yeah i dun need you to calm me, and i didnt blame u for anything.

well i guess after this i will less go to kl coz i know i need time to forget wat had happen between us. i cant look u in the face coz my heart will hurt so badly. no. its not because u hurt me or something... it just my heart cant take the pain of looking u.

i will surely fall for you again and i dun wanna that to happen. i know we are not meant to be together coz hey lets face the fact, u are gorgeous, hav car, have career, and matured enough, and u can love or like anyone u want. and im sure everyone will fall for you and now look at me, im a childish, annoying, not matured, not good looking, still study, and i cant give u anything.

well for all this while, i've been nice to you and it seems when u see im being nice, it makes u think that im being nice for a reason. and trust me, i hav no other bad intention for u. wat u see me is wat i am. maybe some people are truly nice. and u know wat, open up ur heart and try to trust people a bit.

the fact that i treat u nice doesnt mean i need something for return. NO.. i am being nice coz its in my nature. yeah maybe im a bit like u know too nice?? hahahaha well i treat everyone the same. well last but not least, thax for everything. u will always be in my mind for being the person i can look up wit.. thank you

the said

well i love myself coz everyday i know people love no matter where they are.. even they dun like me, others will

cabut kelas

cabut kelas jap hehehe kang sambung gi kelas kul 3pm :P

kelas malaysian studies packed woOOo.. sesakk baik blah lepas sign attendance hahahahha

best nya

best nya.. smlm jalan2 kat tepi pantai.. duduk duduk, baring baring atas batu, amik gambar.. sambil makan ais krim roti. best nya. tepi pantai pontian. tgok budak2 main layang2. tangkap gambar. best yg terkata.. thax

the style, the jury, the verdict..

yada yada yada..

''you're too naughty, too flirty, too childish, not serious in having relation, arghhh you wont be too long in any relationship, you're a whore''

thats the words from people who always describe me. but do they actually know me..? just because i acted naughty does it mean i am one? just because i am flirty does it mean all my life gonna be a flirtatious? if im not serious in having any relationship, then why im doing all the effort to be wit someone? hey hey im not the type of guy wasting my time and money for nothing. im not gonna play sms and show care to someone if i just wanna play people's heart.

and well i guess history tells it all. i've had a relationship for 4 years before this and is that a sign of people who just not so serious in wanna have any relationship? well i dunno wat to say anymore then.

i think i may be come out too strong in the eyes of my fren. they saw me being naughty, wit seing me jumping around on people's lap and started having fun, laugh. but there's one problem. i only hav fun with my fren. its not like i wanna kiss them and invite them to bed .. like duhhhhhhhh the fun is wit among fren je kot. cant i hav fun, laugh wit fren.

ok being flirtatious... hmmmm now i wonder how can people said im being flirtatious? as far as im concern, i dun kiss randomly wit other people. the far that i can do is just saying to other's "you're cute" thats it kot. if i saw people who is cute and gorgeous, im not gonna lie, i just tell them, they're cute. its the truth

and by having fun, they said im a whore? hahahaha well think again, did i sleep wit different people? NO.. did i kiss randomly? NO .. did i follow wat others tell me to do? NO .. so just think bout it. im not gonna say this to them who actually do all the above, i will just kept quiet and let them talk. and till today, i dun think i step across the boundaries where i can lose my dignity.

so wat do they expect from me? sitting in couch like a good boy, pretend nothing happen. if people come just say hi and thats it? if i do like that, where's the personality in me? where's the outgoing person in me? i will lost me

i dun wanna lose me. i am me. and people actually believe wat others tell them bout me. oh well if the jury has spoken, the audience will believe and accept the verdict but one thing for sure, if they do get to know the real me, then im sure, the judgement in them about me will totally wrong.

hey hey, this wasnt the 1st time people mistaken bout me, there's one time, when i worked as a prt time in this shop, i helped my co-workers lending her some money, and few weeks later, i quit my job coz continuing study, and i heard stories, that she told other people i pretended to be nice and that i was a bad person.

well i now i dun mind wat people think about me coz hey one finger pointed at me, the other nine, will point at themselves.. thats why i dun judge people at 1st sight.which i normally do but and plus im a type of guy who doesnt actually care wat other people said. so it doesnt bother at all. but i do feel bother, if i wanna get to know someone, and others tell to this person things that are not true about me and spoil my relationship. but then again, if this person or anyone who wish to get to know me better, make ur own decision. dun let others get in ur way. coz if u listen to others without getting to know the truth, well then may be you dun deserve to know me. ahhhhhh now i feel a bit calmer after expressing my feeling in my own blog..

the world is againts us

from the moment i wake up.. i still thinking of you.. and my current mode has been told in this song.. even the world is againts me from having a moment with u, it wont stop me from falling for you

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep (keep) bleeding love (love)
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing (ooh)
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding (ah ah)
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love (ooh ooh)
Keep bleeding (oh ooh ooh)
Keep, keep bleeding love (love)
(Oh) you cut me open and I

Keep bleeding (ah ah)
Keep, keep bleeding love (yeah ah yeah)
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love (oh, I keep bleeding love)
Keep bleeding (I keep)
Keep, keep bleeding love (oh)
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

dun cry anymore

no matter how hard i tried to make u like me, it just doesnt work anymore.. and i dunno wat else i should do.. and my heart is broken when u listen to others instead of urself.. i just wanna listen to ur own opinions and not wat others tells u to do.. so i really dont know wat to do..

and im in despairs.. u wont know how i feel and when its too late, there's no turning back..

and i dun wanna cry anymore thinking of you..

hope tonite is the last nite i cry for you.. and i wanna move on.. new day new day new day

yeay i pass all my paper..!! now i wonder, should i go to Legal Attachment this year or should i carry orward next year? dilemma dilemma dilemma.. huhuhuuuu