things u regret the most

suddenly all this memories come back to me. the day me and my best fren did a HUGE MISTAKE we ever made in our life.

that time i was 15 and so was Az***. we've been fren since primary school. and we getting close when we're attending highschool. that nite, my parents was out of town. so i invited Az to come over to my place. mom and dad knew that Az was my best buddy ever. so here i am, in my house wit Az.

that nite we're kinda drunk coz maybe we're 'partying' around like hell. hey u are 15 and parents are not home. so as a teenagers, i can feel the freedom that nite. we watched movie together till like wat 2 or 3 am. we online together using my pc. doing pranks with other people, watching porn. hahaha

so that nite around 3am, we were so exhausted and sleepy, the tv was on. it was a porn movie. and i suddenly hug Az. Az dun mind, and then, the next thing happen we kissed, and taking out our cloth, my heart beat fast, my mind wanna explode, and it almost happen when we realized that we did a big mistake. i feel weak that time. we stop wat we r doing and put our cloth back and sleep and pretend nothing happen. i cant sleep that nite thinking wat had happen.

the next day, Az went back. i sms Az and telling Az that no matter wat happen, i want us to be fren and nothing will change that.

but that year, Az changed school and went to technic school. Az left has left me and thats the last time we hang out coz after that, Az started to ignored me. i didnt blame Az i blame myself.

and till now, i regret doing that thing to Az. i wish we could be fren again. and till now i still holding onto that hope.