im so fucked up now..

arghhhh today i wrote so many things in my blog.. whynim having a fucked up mind?? my mind keep on changing and changing and changing.. no wonder my fren called me crazy. i just cant decide wat i wanna do. i should have firm decision.. right now i feel like im soOoo fuck up. why i dunno why..?? just now i was thinking of doing something important but i change my mind later on.. urghhhhhhhh it soOoo hard having a complicated mind..!! no one knows wat i want and wat i wanna do.. even i myself sometime couldnt understand the real me. am i having a split personality? i dunno.. only God knows better.. huhuhuuhu